A new day. I've finished school, made the kids lunch and printed out my exchange label for my laptop. Yes, exchange. I've decided that I'll try another new computer just like this one, and if that one still sucks, then I'll return it. I got 20 bucks back in my account and once it's built, which will take til March 13th, I got upgraded to 2 day shipping for my inconvenience. Mhmm.. yeah, and it was an inconvenience HP. So here's to hoping!!
While getting all my personal stuff off this laptop, I got sucked into my pinterest page again. And while there I found this.
I should have this tattooed on my forehead, so I don't ever forget it. I find that when I'm at my loneliest state, that's when I begin thinking, "maybe it wasn't THAT bad". Seriously, I do. It's sick and completely irrational. But honestly I begin justifying bad behavior, and unacceptable mistreatment, all for the sad reason of loneliness. Then when it passes, and it always does I look back on my thoughts and say, what the hell was I thinking!! I become disgusted with myself and the lack of respect for myself that I allow. I even have gotten guilt ridden when I think about how I was feeling. So now, when I get to that place. I will read this, I will think long and hard and remember that this loneliness, this feeling of desperation, is only temporary. And that I will NEVER settle for anything less then the best, as that's what I deserve.
I dunno, I just had to post this. Now, I have to go and do a full system restore on this computer. Because they wont' begin building my new laptop until this one is mailed out. So that's what I'm off to do. :)
