What a nerd!!

Dying laughing at myself this morning.  What a complete nerd I am!!  OMG, I'd delete my last entry but I feel I deserve humiliation for even writing it, let alone posting it.   Sadly this is not a first "crush" by any means and it will not be a last.  I have a slew of past "crushes"  that I've had and the list is neverending.  It's just sad. haha

So to further my humiliation I have to show you a picture of my current crush.  WHY????  Well, because I remembered what I forgot to include in my post.  Ummm the NAME of the actor who I'm currently infatuated with.  Jeremy Sumpter!!

So, here's the movie that got me hooked on this cutie.  Peter Pan.    Yes, I'm serious and NO I'm not a perv!!    I saw the movie and my first thoughts on it were, when this kid grows up he's going to be so amazing!  He has the ability to flirt at THIS age, imagine when he gets older!! OMG!   And YES he was flirting in the movie, and yes.... he was only a kid!  Anyways.... yeah. haha

I got a crush.. ::Sighs::

Okay so like it's 2am and I'm up.  But I'm really okay with this.   I'm going through a very stupid phase right now.  It's been a couple weeks actually and it's really silly and embarrassing.   Since I've already mentioned this to my one friend haha, figured maybe if I get this out of my system I"ll get past it faster.

I have a stupid crush on an actor, there I said it.  My crushes don't last long thankfully but I tend to get obsessive about them when they do hit me.   I need to watch or buy ALL of the movies they were ever in.   I have to write them a letter and get an autograph.  Yes, seriously, I've not mailed mine yet due to not having a a large envelope YET.   So,... yeah that's what I've been doing, IF you were wondering.  Well not ALL I've been doing.  This is the shit that keeps me sane in between all the other crap.

I have a MILLION balls in the friggen air at the moment.  I'm very nervously waiting to hear back from an apartment complex down the street.  I'm very anxious and it's driving me a bit mad to tell the truth.   I'm still saving up for the security deposit and was reminded by my Mom about me having to register and inspect my car.  ::SIGH:: Hope to god it doesn't need fixing because there's more money if it does.  Ethan's stutter is getting worse and Eric is complaining about it now.  My Mom's birthday is coming up soon and I'm so broke.  And Ethan's birthday is at the end of this month and I'm so not prepared for it.   So... yeah, it's not fun

So, if I want to have a crush on an actor then so be it.  I will god damnit! hahaha  He's 24 years old now so shut up.   I'm not THAT much older, thank god. 14 years isn't bad... I mean unless I was a whore or something I couldn't have been his mom.  So, that's okay right?  OF COURSE IT IS!!  Besides it's not like I"ll ever meet him in person much less anything else. So it's okay.

hahahahh   What do you people want it's 2 in friggen morning!  I just killed a mammoth moth.   I feel like I've forgotten to write something important but am too lazy to reread what I've written so far.  So... suppose I'll hit the sack.   For now... I dream.... And if I'm lucky it'll be of him!  YAY!   Yes I AM acting like a 12 year old love struck puppy, so shut up now. hahahhah