TENSE

Had a better morning then I did night, well sorta.   My oldest son has a pretty bad attitude, and is down right nasty at times.   It's difficult saying this but I'd be lying to say otherwise.  So, since Christmas I vowed it'd be a long time til he got another video game.   He got many for Christmas and a whole new entertainment system from his very generous Uncle.  However his lack of appreciation coupled with a very spoiled brat attitude gave me quite the rude awakening.  Not even a day after Christmas he was complaining that he'd like a new video game.   It wasn't just any old comment, it was the tone in which he said it and the look he gave as he was saying it.

ANYways... that was long and ranting wasn't it?   Felt it was necessary so as to not come off as an ogre here.  I said, wow you selfish spoiled brat, how dare you! No appreciation and worse attitude as if he's entitled to more then he already has.   So, I vowed it'd be a very long time, probably not til his birthday in August that he'd get another game from me.  

But, today, after many many weeks of begging to trade in some older games he had for store credit, I agreed to take him to do such.  However explaining that I would not be putting in any money for a new game and how I warned him that his 2 games would most likely reel in little money if any.   He still wanted to go, so I told him I'd take him to the library afterwards and he could rent a video game there instead. He agreed and understood. (or so I thought) When we got there, he got a whopping 8 dollars and 25 cents for the two games and he left the store miserably with an attitude when he found out I was quite serious about not pitching in to help him buy a $50 dollar game.  Sorry but umm no. He still did go to the library quite reluctantly however.  Am I wrong here?

And that was the better part of my day.

The rest of the day consisted of listening to bickering children, having a headache that wouldn't stop and watching a movie for the first time in a long time, but forgetting about the pizza I had put in the oven for the kids for dinner and burning it as a result of not paying enough attention.  Not following through with a promise to clean the kitchen and make dinner and I'm as tense as can be.

It just sucks.

Tomorrow I plan on getting my laptop.  How you ask?  HP put the money in my account today! Yippee. And I also got my other cash today a day earlier that expected too so I was able to order the kids curriculum, and pay my storage fee. But I'm hoping to get a SUPER early start to my day and go out on my own to get my laptop. I truly want to go out by myself, but am not sure if I'll be up early enough.   Well, what am I saying all week one if not the other of my kids has made sure to wake me up each morning no later than 7:45am.

::SIGHS::  God I'm so damn tense. 

Still up

It's 12:24am, and I'm wide awake.  I'm a little tired but more excited then tired.  Just found out that in 5 days I'll have my money back from my laptop and that means a week from today I can get my new laptop.  Yeah I changed my mind again.  What can I say?  I'm fickle.

So, I'm happy about that. Got my EBT card today too!  That's food stamps card for those of you who are lucky enough not to have to get this card.  A whopping 66 buckaroos for me! ahhh well, hopefully it won't be forever.  No matter how long I've used it, and even though I know it's there for people like me who need it, it still always makes me feel embarrassed to hand it over to the cashier.

Lately, and I typically don't talk about things like this on here but.... lately I've been having these dreams nightmares of my recent ex.   The last one really irritated me. Then I found this and it made me say,

Ah... yeah I think I was, despite not drinking often. 

Seriously, not sure where my head was at. 

Anyways, am feeling crappy today.  Just off, nothing terrible just bleck!  Maybe it was just the day I guess. Hoping tomorrow is better. This week flew by, really it did. Weekend is nearly here, time to order my school books for the boys soon.

Yeah and that's about it. ::sighs:: I'm lonesome tonight. :(  Guess I'll go to bed and hope to dream of someone.... ANYone other then my ex again.

Monolopy

Last night me, Ethan and my Mom all played Monopoly.  It's been years since I played it and not much has changed.  I still stink at it.   Ethan had a lot of fun, and it was nice to see him smiling.   Midway through the game Aiden wanted to play and it wasn't possible of course. I promised him I'd teach him how to play today.  So, naturally it was the first thing he wanted to do this morning.  So, me Aiden and Ethan played Monopoly together.  He didn't do too badly considering it was his first time playing it and all.  Glad he enjoyed it and it was also nice seeing him playing with good sportsmanship.

Later last night Ethan and I got a good scare from yet ANOTHER ugly bug.  I'm not sure where they are coming from.  Glad this one was just  creepy crawling flying type ugly bug but still.  It IS February after all.  It's the one time of year I can let my guard down and relax, knowing that all bugs are gone til spring!  Like what the hell!!!

Today was a ugh day.  We went out, I got to return my library videos/games.  Why, cause doesn't everyone go to their library for video games and movies?  Well in this house we do.  I do have a several books checked out as well ;) I dunno, I'm just in a mood tonight.   Full of tension and frustration.

On a good note, I did lose some more weight!  Very happy about that.  And I haven't been all that hungry today so, I haven't been overeating.  That's also good.  I guess that's all for now.  I'm bored typing.

What is that creeping up my shirt?

So I'm sitting at the kitchen table drinking some green tea this evening, when suddenly I look down on my shirt for no good reason and crawling up my shirt was a yellow jacket.

Now, those of you who know me,  know what took place after that.  The scream fest only lasted about 10 minutes.  But it was enough time to upset Aiden. Ethan however didn't hear it, thankfully.   I had to lie to Aiden and tell him I was screaming because I thought I saw a yellow jacket, but it was only fuzz.  It made him feel a lot better.

However, it WAS a yellow jacket!  In friggen FEBRUARY!  Okay, so how do I know for sure it was, well besides the obvious that it was crawling up my shirt and only was inches from my eyes.  After stripping off my shirt and flailing about the house, it landed on my Mom and she got stung on her neck.

Then I felt bad. But was relieved because she killed it.  And yes I'm still not exactly over it. I keep looking around the room waiting for another to find me.

However later on, me and Mom made a nice low carb pizza. We had eggplant, olives, artichoke hearts, red onion, and feta cheese for toppings!  Very yummy!  We didn't use the typical pizza dough, but instead used these flat bread things that are very very low in carbs!   Here's a couple pics we took of our proud pizzas!

                                 This is how it looked before we cooked it.

                                And this was it all cooked up and yummy!!

So all in all the pizza was good and really was healthy.  Definitely will be remaking that again.

I've been very tired all day and think I'm going to head to bed very early tonight.  Probably around 8 or 8:30, just cause I'm beat.
I finally sent off my laptop at FedEx today. Although I am going to be quite picky when I get my replacement as I've already got my eye on another laptop I saw in Staples today.  Hmmm NICE big screen as mine is only a 15 inch one.  We'll see though.

Loneliness

A new day.   I've finished school, made the kids lunch and printed out my exchange label for my laptop.  Yes, exchange.  I've decided that I'll try another new computer just like this one, and if that one still sucks, then I'll return it.  I got 20 bucks back in my account and once it's built, which will take til March 13th,  I got upgraded to 2 day shipping for my inconvenience.  Mhmm.. yeah, and it was an inconvenience HP.   So here's to hoping!!

While getting all my personal stuff off this laptop, I got sucked into my pinterest page again.  And while there I found this.  

I should have this tattooed on my forehead, so I don't ever forget it.  I find that when I'm at my loneliest state, that's when I begin thinking, "maybe it wasn't THAT bad".  Seriously, I do.  It's sick and completely irrational.  But honestly I begin justifying bad behavior, and unacceptable mistreatment, all for the sad reason of loneliness.  Then when it passes, and it always does I look back on my thoughts and say, what the hell was I thinking!!  I become disgusted with myself and the lack of respect for myself that I allow.  I even have gotten guilt ridden when I think about how I was feeling.  So now, when I get to that place.  I will read this, I will think long and hard and remember that this loneliness, this feeling of desperation, is only temporary.  And that I will NEVER settle for anything less then the best, as that's what I deserve.

I dunno, I just had to post this.  Now, I have to go and do a full system restore on this computer.  Because they wont' begin building my new laptop until this one is mailed out.  So that's what I'm off to do.  :)

A woulda, coulda, shoulda night

A very sad day.  Today I made the difficult decision to return my new laptop.  It just has way too many problems for a brand new computer to have.  It's been 10 days now that I've had it and it just doesn't seem to be getting better, just worse.  Issue after issue after problem, I'm just done.  So now I'm left with the hassle of returning it, getting my money back, and searching for a new laptop.  Grrrrr.....

I'll miss a lot of the bells and whistles like the finger scan and the backlit keyboard.  Although I might be able to get this on the next one.  The speed on this one is awful considering it should be lightening fast. And I really don't like Windows 8, not at all.  What a whole lot of nonsense and it only is annoying to me.  Oh Well.

Thankfully tomorrow is Friday and the kids have a week off!  I'll need that time in order to get their new books, well for Aiden at least.  I'm glad the weekend is here and look forward to sleeping in.  Kids better too!

That's all for tonight, bla.  I'm tired but I'm not, I have a headache but I don't.  I want to go to bed but I don't.  One of those woulda coulda shoulda nights.

Tired

So today I woke up earlyish.  Kids both slept in, VERY cool.  Had some nice coffee and got an early start to my school day.  Kids woke up on their own, well my youngest did.  Had to actually wake my oldest.  School went by without a hitch, always nice.  It was then I realized that I hadn't eaten yet, so ....... I continued.   I've only fasted once, but it was for almost a week and I thoroughly enjoyed it, not to mention lost a ton of weight.  Is this the healthiest thing, no, but it gave me the jump start I needed to begin losing weight the right way.  Today I didn't plan on fasting and come 3pm I found myself in a Chinese restaurant enjoying some nice appetizers with Mom.   I didn't feel it was a failure, nor did I feel I gorged on Chinese food.   Tomorrow I may try again, and really put forth more effort come the end of the day.  I always keep my fluids up and take my vitamins so, it's all good.

I'm exceptionally dopey tonight however. Tired, worn out I dunno, call it what you want.  Just beat from the day I guess. I find myself staring off into space thinking about..... nothing.  It's actually relaxing.  Anyways, had a decent day.  I got the return box for my laptop.  :(   I'm not returning her, just fixing her.  I had to plug an Ethernet cord into my laptop in order to get on tonight. It's pathetic.  So, maybe tomorrow I'll send her out to get fixed.  I hate doing it, I worry about how long it'll take to get her back.  :(   VERY sad and upset that this has happened.

Well, I'm beat, I'm heading to bed, it's 11:35.. yeah I'm done for the night.  Sweet dreams blogging world!

Travel light & Eat Even Lighter

New day new post.

So today I asked Mom to drop me off at my storage unit.  It was refreshing to be there alone. However since we got a late start on the day I didn't have much time.  Amazingly however I got SO much done.  Despite 5 boxes coming tumbling down upon me and being semi trapped in the rubble for a bit. Over all I found my bathroom scale, which I am ecstatic about! I organized the entire unit, which again is SO awesome, and after seeing what I have all pulled out, I'm very excited to see that there is very little that I have to go through!!  

This year I plan to travel light and eat even lighter!  :)  I only had wished that the storage place had a giant dumpster for their customers.  I would have tossed SO much stuff out, and happily at that. God I hate clutter!

Meanwhile at home, it's been okay.  Kids kinda drove me a little insane tonight but nothing I'm not used to. I normally freeze up here but tonight I'm sweating.  It's so annoying. Normally I hate being on a hard chair and I love soft beds and sofas when I'm online, but tonight if given the choice I'd take the hard chair in a heartbeat. UGH.  

That's about it.  Just an annoying day over all. Kids have school tomorrow, and I didn't get their lessons ready so I gotta do that first thing tomorrow morning. oh yay.  

Early night for me I guess.  Arrgggh!

Productive

After just enjoying some fresh juicy strawberries, and some guava pineapple juice, I have to say I feel very good!   It's been a long day, but productive.  I shoveled the driveway and the entrance to the garage, took in both the boxspring and mattress from Mom's car and brought it the basement.  Then I went out and picked up my little ones prescription.  Yeah I'd say I feel good, sore for sure, but good.

My oldest came home today from an unexpected 3 day weekend with his dad.  It was nice seeing his sweet smiling face again. I've missed it.  He had a good time and was happy to be back home.  We got to watch the newest episode of the TV show "Once upon a time" our favorite!  It was fun, and a really good episode too!  Can't wait til next week.

I wish I had the energy or I'd wash the dishes for Mom tonight, but my back is just so sore. Ugh.  Kids ate so that's done.  Really it's a quiet night. Nearly 7pm, ehh works for me.  That's about it here. 

Finally, I got the pic to load!

YAY finally got it to work!! 

This is the adorable dream catcher my sister made me.

Thanks again Miss!

So beautiful :)

So this morning I woke up early, and went online to wake up.  For the first time in a while, my youngest slept in.  It was a dream come true. I love him to pieces but, I just need some downtime.  My sweet lil' sister was making me a dream catcher.  And this morning she finished it!  Here's a picture of it she sent me on my facebook!
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TAAAADAAAAAHHHH this is where the picture is SUPPOSE TO BE. But for whatever reason, my NEW laptop is being a complete ASS so I can't post the pic.  Been trying for the last 10 minutes but it beat me. So, later on I'll to show you.  MOST annoying.   Just know it's beautiful.
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She truly is so talented!!  She even agreed to make two more for the boys!!  I'm so excited yay!  If she lets me I'll see if I can post a pic of me and her when we were younger.  Gotta see if it's okay first though ;)

My ex-husband called me today asking if my oldest son can stay overnight one more night during his visitation due to the bad weather.  I asked to speak to my son and he seemed elated if he could stay over so I agreed.  The way I see it is that, if he's having that much fun over there, why ruin it for him. Plus it kinda gives me another day of just one child, which is always a little easier. :)

As I'm sure you all have seen I've recently updated the look of my blog.  Let me know what you think guys! Commments?? Likes hates???   OH by the way see the cute little button to your left, the one that says: There are no members yet be the first?   Yeah, umm could you please follow my blog... it'd be kinda cool if it didn't seem like I was COMPLETELY lame here. Thanks!

Notice how I'm not talking about the mini blizzard outside today.  And I'm not mentioning that we have at least 4 inches out there and it's still snowing. I'm not talking about that not at all.

I will say that as we speak I'm prepping some nice stuffing for a dinner. We're having roasted Chicken with stuffing and potatoes and I think corn for a veggie!  Yum!!

It's quiet in the house right now.  Very Sundayish.  I've been spending most my day online in my pjs like a complete bum. But, plan on taking a nice shower later and treating me and Mom to a pedicure/manicure.  Should be fun. GIRLS night! YAY.

That's all for now.  Remember "Follow me" and comment :)   This means YOU. ;)

Another long day

Another very long day.   I fell asleep last night with my glasses on.  Had no intention of going to bed so early, however my body had other plans.  Woke up in the middle of the night with my glasses digging into my forehead.   Thankfully I had put my laptop down before I fell asleep.  I was startled out of my sleep by my screeching alarm on my stupid cell phone.  I had it set to alert me the day before a payment was coming out of my checking account so I'd not forget.   Unfortunately I didn't realize how loud the damn thing was and so it woke both me and my lil' one up.  UGH

Not a fun way to start the day. Had some much needed coffee and woke up a bit more. Then Mom and me decided to drive to my sisters and get her mattress and boxspring.  I'm glad we got to see her today.  I miss her so much and jump at the chance to visit. I know Mom misses her too, so it was really nice to see her.  I admire my little sister, and really like her boyfriend.  He's so good to her, and you can just tell how much he loves her without a word spoken from him.  It's nice to see her happy. :)

After my sister's boyfriend helped us move the bed into Mom's car, we chatted for a bit then took off. The ride was a little uncomfortable but since I was helping Mom clean at her job along the way, it wasn't so bad with the frequent stops.  By the time we got home though, I was done. I'm still tired even after having another cup of coffee.

So that's it.  boring blog # 21 bla 

Long day, long post

Yesterday I had to go to my storage unit up the street. I was looking for my super nice bathroom scale, my kitchen scale and the baby monitors I bought to keep an eye on the kids when I'm not in with them.  Sadly I only was able to find 2 out of the 3.  The bathroom scale must be waaaay in the back of the unit and I just have SO much furniture that it's difficult to get to.  Not to mention I'm all alone doing this and have my mom waiting on me.  I know she doesn't mind to a degree, but really, it's no fun waiting for someone to dig through their crap, while you just stand there waiting for them to get done.  So, I was able to pull out a bureau that I don't want anymore.  I mean it used to be my brothers when he was little, then my kids when they were babies, and now although they still could use it technically, it's just old, and I'm so sick of looking at it.  Mom says she can use it in her bedroom, as her room is so small that she needs a smaller bureau like this one, so I told her she can have it back. :)  When I finally do move into my house in a few years, I really want to start fresh.

Today, I had a 10:15am appointment with Health and Human Services. My amazing Mother took me as usual due to my sad car being with a flat and power steering issues.  We had to lug the kids with us, always fun.  Thankfully I doubled them up with school all week so not doing school today was not an issue. (gotta love homeschools little perks!)  They were allowed to take their handheld video games, although Ethan's wasn't fully charged.   When we got there it was mobbed with all sorts of characters.  A little blond haired girl about 3 years old running around the waiting room weaving in and out of the people standing in the line for the check in window that stretched from the beginning nearly to the entrance. There was this other little boy in a baby carriage getting a big kick out of the girl running, and continuously chuckled as she ran.  A woman was at the reception window arguing with an employee about how they lost her paperwork.  Well, you get the idea.   Craziness at it's finest.

I checked in, and they called me pretty quick. Mom watched the kids for me in the insanity waiting room.  My heart went out to her as I walked through the door leaving her behind.  The woman came in the office and sat down. After many questions that I've already answered a million times both on paper and in person with others.  The long and short of it is, I qualify for medical, thankfully. I also qualify for my foodstamps, but will only be getting $66 a month.  That's the lowest I think I've ever gotten actually, but I'm grateful, at least it's something.  Unfortunately my card doesn't come for another week!  My child support is delayed too for whatever reason and it's just MEGA tight here this month.   I'll be happy when the first of March comes. I hate wishing away the months but, when you have 38 cents to your name (literally) there's really not much else to do then sit and wait til you get paid.  For me, it's the 1st of the month.

So, I've had my lap top now for a couple days and over all it's quite impressive.    However, ((sighs)) I have found some "glitches" that I'm not so happy about.  First, I keep losing my internet.  I have it then I lose it, then I have again.  I've already checked my Mom's modem, and have tried resetting it.  It's not the modem.  I tried doing a diagnose and repair on my laptop, but they find nothing.   Then suddenly I have internet again. It's not just the internet however that's giving me problems.  A few of my programs have been crashing on me continuously.  And then there is the problem with my cursor having a mind of it's own and jumping from where I'm typing to the middle of my document.  It's not my mousepad, because I lock that when I type, so I'm not sure what is up with that at all. Then there are times when the whole screen just freezes and I can't even move my mouse at all!  All these things make me extremely nervous and frustrated because I paid a lot of money for this laptop it's only 3 days old and already having problem?  I will definitely be returning it if it doesn't straighten out soon.  Like by Monday. Just sad and frustrated with all this.

Made some left overs for lunch for the kids and me.  Have a headache..........again. Its 2pm and I'm so done.  I'm angry at a lot of things, and frustrated.  All I want is a computer that works, to wake up with no headaches and well rested, and to have enough money to live comfortable without worry of food and stuff like that.  Seems so simple but apparently it's not.

That's about all for now. It's nice out today, sunny and warmish.  Right now the kids are playing on the porch, they are being SO loud however, it's grating on my nerves something awful.  I just want peace and quiet, two things as a parent you never get.

What a long day and it's only 2pm. wow.

V-Day

Okay, so I woke up to my youngest smiling at me.  As I'm opening my eyes looking at his smile, he says,  "Happy Valentimes Day Mom!"   I smiled back and said, "Happy Valentines day babylove."   He goes on to say, "Will you be my special Valentimes this year?"  Of course I will I told him.

Ya know what, out of all the Valentine's days I've had, so far, this one has started out the best.  And that's saying something.  Seeing as I'm single and I've been in enough relationships to shake a stick at.  Last year I was given a very stale chocolate rose and a cheap teddy bear and was told "this should make me happy."  Some things you just don't forget, and that is one I"ll keep with me for sure.

On a brighter note, as usual I'm making the boys their special Valentines breakfast! Heart shaped pancakes! I really ought to get started as the later I start the later we start school.  And the later I wait, then everyone will be monopolizing the bathroom and the kitchen and it just is harder. UGH  But, I'd rather be writing and enjoying my morning. Loving my laptop, am so thankful that I have it.

Decided with my friend that it's going to be too much for both of us to visit this time, so we canceled out for Tuesday.  Am glad I never told the kids as I know they'd be disappointed.  I am too though, but she's just too far away and without a car it's just too hard to meet up.  She said she'd be around by the end of the year again so, we'll make more solid plans for that. :)  Meanwhile, we will try to skype and keep in touch through email like we have been.

Well, Moms up, so time to start my day.  So far so good. :)

Doesn't take much :)

Wow, as soon as I hit "Publish" on my last blog, in comes an email from my good friend, the one I hadn't been hearing from.  Unreal.  He wrote me, I'm happy. no I'm extremely happy and feeling better already.   I guess I'm easy to please hahah

Gotta learn patience and more understanding I know I know. :)  

But glad he wrote, it meant a lot!  :)

Friendship

Back from errands!  Kids are fed.   Life is good.  Well, as good as it can be.  I'm just so very grateful I have my new laptop now.  Words just can't describe it.  It's mega fast and so very new.  Love it love it love it!

I talked to an old friend today who is visiting all the way from California!! I'm wicked excited to meet her this coming Tuesday with her boys. My kids are going to flip when they find out!  They have missed seeing their little friends as much as I have missed my friend.   Not sure where we'll be going as my funds are quite limited due to this large purchase of my lap top this month.  It'll have to be someplace easy and fun for them to play .... I guess. haha  And I hope she can pick me up.  We'll see though.

I am so glad we're getting together.  Another old friend of mine hasn't been in touch with me lately and it's been bothering me.  I've been feeling so alone lately, and pretty damn friendless to be honest. I even dreamt of him last night, which isn't typical for me, so he's obviously on my mind.  I'm surprised at him for not writing me.  I'm sure he has his own shit goin' on but, really wish he'd write and tell me about it at least.  Ahh well, guess when he has time he will.  (I hope).

Had a decent day with schooling the boys today. Ethan gave me a little attitude regarding doing his work.  Is very lazy and hates learning new things that require him to work.  Aiden however did superb today with his reading!  He's really coming along nicely and is nearly done with this years curriculum.  I can't wait to order the first grade curriculum for him and get him started on that right away.  I may use the A Beka reading program for him despite Mom's advise about it being a little pricey.  I really think he'll flourish once he has a good reading program in place.

It's mellow outside today.  Not really cold at all.  The snow is melting.  I meant to take a picture of what I shoveled near the garage but got lazy, like who cares really, no one ever reads this thing anyways, let alone looks at the pictures I take.  I think I'm going to just lay on the sofa and grade the kids papers and prep for tomorrows lessons.  Then take a nice hot shower and sip on some hot tea while reading a good book :)

God I'm so boring!

Okay thee end.

It's finally HERE!!

YAY I got my laptop yesterday!!   It's so very nice.  I feel semi-independent now.  :D  haha  It's better then I imagined and it's just so, new!

I feel so free.  I've been needing one now for a long time and to have this, is like someone just gave me a million dollars. I've already used it to aid me in school with the kids.  It's just all around awesome. I love love love the keyboard and the way the keys sound when I type. ( a big deal to me).   I'm getting used to Windows 8 slowly but it's fun learning something new. :)

So yeah, I'm happy.  I'll be blogging more often for sure now that I don't mind typing and it's uhh MINE!! :D yippeee!!

So, for now I"m off doing some errands with Mom, but I'll be back.  Yipp Yipp Yippee!

:D :D :D:D:D

whatever

It's snowing?  Like really?  Okay okay I get it, I live in New England, and it's Winter.  But, like.... really?  UGH.

For some strange reason, I'm in the worst mood!  I even got to watch my favorite TV show this morning, but even that didn't make me feel better.  I just feel like snapping at everyone.  And EVERYone is ticking me off, terrible.  

There's NO where to go to escape it, I'm sick of always being cold.  And what is this like day 3 of my headache, will it EVER end???  

Okay even this is annoying me, writing about my annoyances.  I'm off here. 

Who says it's fluffy snow? My back says otherwise!

My back is so broken.


Yes, I shoveled.  Yes I am so sore.  I was helped however, by the nicest man across the street who graciously offered to help me by snow blowing the opening of the driveway.  By this point I had been out for over an hour and barely had made a dent in the over 36 inch snow drifts. Here's some pics to show you how it came out.

I had my oldest son walk on my back.  It cracked like 9 times haha.  Why I'm not in bed is a mystery to even me.  Enjoy the pics folks. ;)

                           OH look, stairs!  Didn't think I'd ever see them again.

Yesterday....                                           And today...

Before.....

                                 And after the beginning of my shoveling.

                               

Driveway Before (from the lamppost to the street,

that's where the guy helped me. The rest I did.

And After

Again,..... Before.......

And After

                  I did all this part myself though. Despite it looking like a labyrinth!

                                       From the end of the driveway.

                         I actually tackled this drift toward the end of the evening,
                         haven't uploaded the pics of this but will tomorrow.

                           

OH the SNOW!!

It's early well not that early and upon waking up I am dumbfounded at the amount of snow outside.  Although technically I was around for the Blizzard of '78, I have no memory of it as I was so young.  But this, I don't think I'll ever forget.

I can't see my Mom's car.  I can't open our screen door.  The drifts are unbelievable!  The snow is just coming down like rain still and it's nonstop.  I joked with my kids that I could throw my youngest in the backyard and he'd be lost because it's so high!

However, my favorite thing overall has to be we STILL have power!!  Like, I want to do the dance of joy happy!   I am so thrilled and relieved about this.  My kids are not the best without their electronics... well these days who really is?   So I'm very, very grateful about that. Hopefully it stays like this.

I still have a headache which is a bit annoying really.  I'll take something for it and all my vitamins soon.  Just thought I'd update my blog while I still have power.


For fun I took some pictures of what I"m talking about. :)

                                         Can't see out the window!

                                         Can't open the door.

                                         Our front porch

                    My Mom's car?? You can sorta see the front thru the bushes.

                                  Our backyard, and what's left of a chair.

                                          Snow drifts up to the window.

Nehyaaa blaa uggh

Well, here comes the blizzard.  So far we have about 5 inches.  It's very cold, luckily ((knocks on wood)) we still have power.  I dread the thought of our power going out though.  I've filled the tub with water so that we can flush the toilet.  The kids handhelds are charged up so is my puny cell.  And I've washed all of our clothes.  So, now we just wait and hope that the storm goes easy on us.

I have a bad headache tonight.  I'm very tired and fell asleep for at least an hour or so upstairs.  It was crazy.  I hate falling asleep when my kids are up.  It's one thing when I'm in my own place,...... but knowing that someone else is having to deal with them while I sleep is awful.  And although it's only happened one other time then this, I always feel like I've put everyone out and everyone is happy I'm finally up.

I guess I'm a little moody, but maybe it's just my headache.  I just had some cocoa in hopes that I'd feel better but instead I think it just made my headache worse. Every noise is annoying me right now down to my own fingers tapping against the keyboard.

I'm still tired, perhaps I'll call it an early night tonight. To be honest I just want my laptop to come, so each day that goes by is one day closer to that happening.  I didn't check the mail today, but who wants to go out in snow, especially since there's no guarantee that I'll actually have any mail. I'm considering shoveling tomorrow, why?  No idea.  How very tired I am.... did I just say that? hah

Okay I guess that's it.

Moody

Note to self: Going to bed at 2am on a school night is not the brightest move. 

I'm tired but not exhausted. At least the porch is clean and the majority of my things are not up here anymore.  The less that's up here the better. Kids are doing seatwork and I'm just trying to keep warm.  I'm cold today and the porch isn't exacting toasty at the moment.  Kids are fine though as they have the heater blowing on them in there. 

I wish my laptop would arrive early. I'd do anything for that to come.  I'm a little out of sorts today. Down in the dumps but not. I dunno stupid I guess. Luckily the kids make me smile. :)

At least my molars aren't killing me this morning.  Although my cough was pretty bad when I woke up and I'm not really sure which is worse.  Right now the sun is out and we have blue skies.  If I've ever seen the "calm before the storm" I guess this is it.  I don't look forward to the storm, and for whatever reason I'm not really in the mood to go out of the house today.  Probably because I have like 38 cents in my account. But, ((Shrugs)) I dunno just am not in the mood.

I haven't eaten today and should but don't want anything that we have. Well, we do have bacon, perhaps I could make that. Although it's so messy, arrrgh.  I'll see I guess.  It's getting late nearly 10:30am maybe I'll just wait for lunch.  How annoying. 

Wish I could snap out of it. I think I'm moody because I didn't get enough sleep. Tonight I'll get a good nights sleep. Early bedtime for me for sure.

Blizzard

Well I was attempting to clean but got bored with it so thought I'd blog instead.  Not that I have much to blog about.  We're getting a blizzard on Friday!  Not sure if I'm glad or dreading it.  On one hand it can be fun and cozy.  On the other hand, if we lose power, that will truly suck.  No heat, no food, no electronics, and 2 kids.  Umm yeah, SO not fun.  Not to mention no lights, no water, and this can go on for days.   Yeah I've decided that I am dreading this.

So much for my sleep lab this Sunday. :(  God does THAT stink.  Was really looking forward to getting that overwith but nooooooooo, stupid snow.   Now I have to go and cancel it, reschedule it for another time, god only knows when.  Tomorrow I have to pick up Aiden's medication before the storm hits.  Today I mailed my very first Pre-application to USDA!!  Yippeee!  It's very very exciting for me. This is the start of it all.  In a couple years or so I'll be writing this very same blog from the luxury of my OWN home!  I just can't wait.

It's cold out tonight.  I'm chilled. I had a nice morning with the kids though.  I really enjoyed homeschooling thoroughly today.  It was just,.... so nice.  :)  Now if I could just stop yawning tonight ugh.  My molars are really hurting me tonight.  I'm so bummed out, nothing worse then tooth pain.. well other then giving birth. ;)  This hurts too though.  Oh and it's okay, today when I was mailing the USDA application, I didn't accidentally mail Aiden's prescription AND my cough drops at the post office. Thank god the post lady was able to unlock the mailbox and retrieve them for me.  How embarrassing, what a dope.

Okay, so I have a cough, I don't have a cough and now tonight again with the cough!!   Like seriously ? make up you're mind and stay or go.  I mean enough already.   Wow it's getting late, nearly 12:30.  Time for me to say night night for now.  Sweet dreams blogging world.  Like anyone reads this.  And if you are reading this, what the hell, comment or something, email I dunno!!!  I'm bored here.

"Did I crawl out your mouth?"

Good Morning,
                              One child is done with school, the other is just finishing up now.  I'm finally feeling better today, shhh don't jinx me!  haha  I still got a cough.  Once the Aiden finishes up then we can go to the library. :)

It's a very February day out there.  Cold, grey sky and just bla.  I don't have much to say today.  Although I will share a short story about my 8 year old from 2 mornings ago.

I'm sound asleep, it's about 7am and I'm woken up by my son's little voice saying. "Mama, I know I came from your belly, but you never told me how I actually got out of there.  Did I crawl out your mouth?"     Seriously, I was not expecting that and smiled with my eyes barely opened and answered saying, "May I wake up before explaining where babies come out?"  He looked at me and said, "Um okay, but I can't figure out where else they would come out so, don't forget to tell me later!"

As of today I still haven't told him. He forgot all about it and I'm hoping for a little while he continues to as I'm not sure how to go about explaining this, unless I'm just honest and use actual body names.  That's probably the best way to go about it.

Okay, so that's that.  Time to check on the curious one, he's being very quiet and that can be a good thing but rarely is with him. ;)

Sick..... again?

So once again, I'm sick.  Seriously though?  I mean really?  ((Sighs))

Cold, sore throat and my worst ever, COUGH.  UGHH   The coughing just is the worst.  hacking and hacking and dry throat.   Keeping me up all night and I just know the kids will both get it.  It's inevitable.  I mean, Ethan already has a mild case of it and Aiden is surely to get it too.

Let's see on the up side.. wait is there an up side?  hmmm  must be SOMEthing up?  Oh yeah, I finally got to order my much MUCH over due laptop.  AND Friday Ethan finished his testing and so I was able to order Ethan's new curriculum.  Yay!  Yeah that's about it.    It's all good though. Both things are mega important.

Dreamed about a good friend of mine last night. Made me get a bit sentimental for a little while.  Then I got a bitter taste of reality and ended up writing to them.

It's cold out and windy today.  I love February but am kinda looking forward to the spring a little bit.

I got to close my citizens bank account today, am VERY excited about this!  


That's it  though.


hm.